Full Disclosure: Desperate Leader
Have you ever been desperate for something? Ever been in a place of total need where you absolutely knew that the task at hand was too great for your own abilities? A place where you knew that what you were working on or encountering seemed impossible in and of your own strength? And so you were desperate, just praying for something to happen, praying for it all to come together.
Now in many professions, it’s probably not too popular for a leader to earn a reputation as desperate. No one wants to be known as someone who is just grasping at straws or will do anything to land the deal, do anything to land ANY deal. That kind of desperate isn’t what I’m talking about.
As a pastor, I’m finding that living from a position of desperation is a great way to live. Over the past few months, I’ve written a couple of times about being a part of helping our church launch a new campus. Over the past 8-12 months we planned and prepared and prayed…and honestly thought we had some pretty good systems in place (and they were). But then something happened…day 1 happened. The first weekend, nearly 2,000 people showed up and it changed everything…in a great way. In a way that’s tough to put into words. So I won’t try to describe all that it changes in you as a leader, I’ll just say this: When God does amazing things, it brings you to a desperate place.
It’s a place where you’re relying on him for everything: wisdom for the next decision, wisdom for EVERY decision, favor in the eyes of people, even just energy to make it through the day. You’re just trusting in God because you know that what you’re experiencing isn’t anything you could’ve done. And so you desperately seek God and ask him to equip you for the moment.
As a leader it’s good to be this kind of desperate.
What’s crazy then is how quickly my desperate heart can change, can fade. For a few weeks, you’re completely praying, completely relying on God because you’re just trying to hold on for the ride…and then something happens. You begin to figure a few things out. You make some decisions that bring some form of order to the chaos or you feel like you have some personal wins and guess what?…the desperate position from which you’ve been operating is gone (truthfully it’s still there, you still need God just as much as before it’s just that you forget about it). That desperate position can be gone so quickly.
Now don’t get me wrong, I believe God gives us wisdom to lead in the midst of those moment and as he’s leading us, we’re able to make good decisions, able to bring order from chaos, able to do the task in front of us. But if we’re not careful, we don’t do it with the same spirit. We begin to treat each task, each decision as if it’s just as common as picking out which socks I’m going to wear today. And if I’m honest, it’s scary how quickly you can go from that desperate place to almost an independent place. And as a pastor, I’ve got no business operating independently. This is all God’s work. Not mine.
So today, could I encourage you – operate from a point of desperation, one where you’re counting on God and seeking God and asking God to show up in the midst of even your most ordinary tasks and decisions. Because what he has in store is amazing. It will blow you away…and I know for me at least, I’m more attune to it when I operate from a desperate place.



